welp I should probably post in this thing SO

My thoughts on Tim Drake and how they relate to my stupid teenage life, LET ME TELL YOU THEM, LJ. (More specifically, my feelings regarding rape and Fabian Nicieza.)

( because this is better than writing my app )

In other news, I'm done with high school and I went to England in March.

for my ap lit midterm, I wrote an essay on dildos. I got an A+. I am no longer mad at my teacher. (I was IN A RAAAAGE!! all of january but you know what, I just can't be thanks to this.)

I am so stoked for skins series five. SO STOKED!! I'm kind of in love with franky ngl. and I'm loving the rich/alo bromance.

and I started reading young justice. ...which is weird because I've never read a western comic before. but I do really like it.

still plowing my way through the bartimaeus trilogy again. SERIOUSLY YOU GUYS READ THIS ugh it's so good. I need to make a compilation post of comments on nathaniel's appearance. they are the greatest.

ugh my criminal justice class. it's the worst. I swear it's worse than a fucking regents class (non-honors? idk what other states call them) thanks to TWO people. just shut up.

/CHUGS TEA

HAPPY NEW YEAR FLIST I hope your resolutions are met with at least mild success.

my christmas was essentially an abundance of chocolate oranges, tea, and ap bio homework.

I'm now in the very tiny fandom for the bartimaeus trilogy (THESE ARE BESTSELLERS, WHERE IS THE LOVE) because goddamn these books are hilarious and surprisingly well-written. (footnotes! character development! a good plot! witty narrative!)

and I finally finished watching misfits. ...why do new seasons take forever :c

...I have yet to see the doctor who christmas special. somehow.

senioritis is kicking innnnnn

I GOT INTO GENESEO.

goodbye college apps, you were a painful, horrible experience.

I didn't know it was possible, but today I encountered drama over fundraisers. yes, that's right, motherfucking fundraisers. I don't think I've mentioned it, but my friends and I run a joint environmental/community service club (we manage the recycling program in the school and we do fundraisers several times a year) and two years ago we started a fundraiser of selling candy canes that we planned to keep up every year. it did really well. so the class of 2012 decided last year in september to sign up to get permission to sell candy canes for the holidays to raise money for their class (which essentially just means their prom tickets are cheaper). and the school said "bitch, no" because it's our club's thing. but the club adviser was out on maternity leave last year during that time so we couldn't do it and they got pissed. so they decided to try again this year. except we got clearance instead because IT'S OUR THING. and now the junior class is pissed at us because they wasted money buying candy canes before they got clearance by trying to steal our fundraiser idea a second time. they actually confronted us about it, asking why we're fucking selling candy canes and saying we shouldn't because they're wrapped in plastic idek. which came down to us telling them we're donating the money to charity and maybe they shouldn't buy things without getting clearance first so they backpedaled and claimed they were joking.

WHY WOULD YOU THINK YOU'RE ENTITLED TO THIS WHEN WE DID IT FIRST AND YOU FAILED TO GET CLEARANCE TWICE you disgusting excuse for a human being. holy shit you have like two other year-long fundraisers for your class as well as a million other one time things. sorry for wanting to donate to fucking charity you fantastic cunt.

and DECA can apparently sell cookies all day long and it's fine but delivering candy canes during school hours violates the health policy. are you fucking kidding me. way to cut our sales since now people have to pick them up after school ends. this school is a giant mess of stupid.

yeah this is what happens when I find out don't ask don't tell won't get repealed

oh also I apped zim at witchesreign and I'm probably going to drop from gargleblasted soon.

wow, um. WHAT A QUESTION. I can never answer these types of questions with just one choice, so have a list. (as a warning, they'll all probably be for school since I have lost since lost the amount of free time necessary to support my once obsessive reading habit.)

1) As I Lay Dying by William Faulkner. I read this last year for AP Lang and Comp and WOW DO I LOVE IT. half because I enjoy making fun of it and half because it's amazing. essentially some southerner's mother dies and she's a gigantic bitch so they have to cart her across the state to bury her as she's rotting since they only have a horse-drawn wagon. also there's some incest, adultery, failed abortions, and an abundance of wood metaphors. also metaphysics.

2) Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov. this was so creepy that I felt dirty just reading it. and I have a high tolerance for that sort of thing.

3) The Centaur by John Updike. PETER YOU GODDAMN LITTLE POOFER. I started out hating this because wow that first chapter is pretty hideous if you haven't read the rest of the book, but when I had to read the rest of it in one day for the test, I quickly became absorbed in it and started to love it. basically it's the tale of a teacher and his son's mundane lives juxtaposed with that of greek gods'. and their car just never works ever.

4) A Clockwork Orange by Anthony Burgess. I actually first read this in ninth grade and reread it this year for the same teacher. I just. I really love this book.

5) My Bonny Light Horseman: Being an Account of the Further Adventures of Jacky Faber In Love and War by L.A. Meyer. I THINK this was this year, so. idk I really love this series (despite not having the time to read the latest books argh and despite some cliches) and I read all god I think like 600 pages of this book one Saturday. it was pretty intense. crossdressing badass pirate? yes please.

and I'm hoping I can get through Ptolemy's Gate before the year is up because goddamn I love the Bartimaeus Trilogy and I always forgot to read this one. and I want to read that prequel so bad.

HAHA yes I am aware this list is all classic lit WHAT OF IT. I don't actually have taste I just take AP english.

okay now back to killing myself over this ap bio textbook. THIS IS WHY I DON'T HAVE TIME TO READ.

AUUUUGH SUNY APP OR COMMON APP?? Idon'twanttodocollegeapps sob.

IN OTHER NEWS, I've been listening to jukebox the ghost all week. damn you, indie music...!

IN OTHER OTHER NEWS, I feel I should admit that I've been reading invader zim fanfiction for oh, the past month. it is something I'm greatly ashamed of, but oh, mediocre writing and characterization, I just can't quit you. ;__; it is a wonderful roller coaster of bursting out into laughter during sex scenes and staring in horror at the monitor (I am slowly getting over my disgust at gore).

IN OTHER OTHER OTHER NEWS, I will be seventeen next week and I've had a cough for two weeks and I hate italian projects and I hate chemistry and I love ap lit and I'm actually doing good in a math class.

IN WONDERFULLY AMAZING NEWS, kamatani is starting a series about a choir boy whose voice is changing. I--oh kamatani, please marry me.

my friend got me sick (despite my other friend INSISTING she just has allergies, YES I JUST COINCIDENTALLY DEVELOPED THE SAME COUGH) and cuddling hurts my hips for some unexplainable reason. also cuddling in a skirt is a horrible idea. also also full beds are fucking amazing.

it's a good thing I proofread the letter of recommendation I got because it said 'young man' about three times. WAY TO COPY AND PASTE, TEACHER.

I may do nanowrimo this year if homework permits. I should probably actually pay attention to my rps though.

DARREN MOTHERFUCKING CRISS ON GLEE. now the reasons I still watch this show (typoed 'shit') will be raised to three.

hi how are you

day thirteen, this week
hmm. I don't think I did anything exciting this week? the usual after school stuff of coffee and KFC with friends (we have to go to the starbucks next to KFC since our usual is under renovation...). I put off a lot of my homework this week by doing it in school or waiting until this weekend to do it. also did a lot of painting of boxes for O.Y.E. (which stands for open your eyes, which is our school's environmental club that also does fundraisers for charity and shit that my friends and I inherited from the seniors who founded it) since the janitors threw out all the boxes we use for recycling over the summer that took probably three years to get to all the classrooms. we basically do all the paper recycling for the school so we had to steal a fuckton of boxes from everywhere and paint them all and label them all and distribute them. which still isn't done in its third week. fuck the janitors.

day fourteen; what you wore today
hahaaaa oh god I was pretty hideous today. I rarely put in effort on fridays, especially humid fridays. messy braid, jeans, sneakers, blue camisole and one of those flowy sweater-type...things? not sure what they're called.

day fifteen; your dreams
I...cannot remember any dreams at the moment, so I'm assuming this means aspirations and goals? WELL! in that case, I don't really have any dreams because I'm a pessimist and prefer not to get my hopes up. I plan on working hard towards becoming a psychiatrist one day. not really sure what I'd do once I got there. (not sure if I'd get through my medical degree, really, but here's to hoping.) I kind of want to do research. I'm pretty much good with anything really. I'm one of those people who would be satisfied with a desk job and I'd like to live in relative comfort. I'd also like to become fluent in french one day. I also want to live someone pretty cold, whether that means leaving america or not. (ideally, I'd like to leave america if I can.)

yes, so! I finally caved and watched 'suffolk county state of mind.' it's pretty cute.

also, ap lit is pretty fucking awesome, if only because saying "hey teacher, I'm lazy and don't want to do this assignment" got the class an extension on a homework. and because he actually knows what catcher in the rye is about.

I'm not entirely sure what day I'm up to but I know I'm backlogged, so!

day eight; a moment

( cut for courtesy )

day nine; your beliefs

ohhh dear. these have changed a bit in the last year. I'm no longer a stereotypical raging atheist!! but a liberal pussy of an atheist with a mild distaste for organized religion. this may be largely thanks to reading the Friendly Atheist, though even he is getting a bit too angry for my tastes lately. (I'm not sure if he's getting angrier or if I'm getting pussier...) I think Jesus is a pretty cool guy, though, and definitely appreciate when people actually take his teachings to mind instead of just saying they do. he's a good role model if not taken to the extreme.

as for morals, I'm not really picky. I'm a strong believer in the gray area and can't really make up my mind on certain issues. really, it just comes down to "are you hurting anyone? no? then continue."

I AM SO TIRED!! fuck you, school.

day two » your first love

( my heart makes a sound like...this )

that wasn't particularly angsty if you're too afraid the click the cut. 8|b

that 30-day meme that's going around. fear not, flist, I don't have the dedication to do this every day.

day one » introduce yourself (with proper grammar for ease of reading!)

( cut because god who even wants to read this )

Well, now that you know everything you could ever possibly want to and more, it's...nice to meet you?

mmmm so. august went by ridiculously fast. nearly failed the activity check for witchesreign because I wasn't paying attention ahaha asjdfhg. ...still haven't done my ap bio assignment.

kitten-sat again, which accounts for a few days of 'where did the time go?' didn't get a lot of sleep again because she wants to cuddle everyday at 6am like clockwork. :c

my current mission is to finally fucking finish heart gold. just need to beat red...! which. involves getting my pokemon to level 80+ sob. I'm nearly there though!! I haven't played this since ap exams. LEVEL 65 ARON hahaha it's so ridiculous.

and! and! the most important news!! unless something goes horribly wrong (the venue burning down, we don't show up on time, fans crawl out of the woodwork and there's no more room, etc), I'm seeing darren criss live this saturday! but I haven't been to nyc in a few months, so I'm excited. I was incredibly pissed because I couldn't see him last time he was in the city so this makes it okay. A-AAHH I'M EXCITED.

ah. so. the final chapter of nabari no ou.

I'm not really sure how I feel about this other than ಥ_ಥ.

the chapter itself is...pretty much all I could ask for, short of a fairy tale ending. I love you, kamatani. I knew it would make me cry like a baby.

but...nabari has been my main fandom for over two years. I don't know what I'm going to do without a new chapter every month. the fandom is probably going to die soon, with the anime being over for years and no more onemanga. and...yeah. I don't know. it's really impacted me a lot, from icons to weird fetishes to love to intersexuality to roleplay to friends.

it was so worth it. I'll always love you, nabari. ♥ you were wonderful.

(HONESTY MEME.) (I don't know how to make this pretty like puzzley)
Step 1: Post this into your LJ publicly.
Step 2: Others will reply anonymously (if they'd like) about what they really think of you.
Step 3: Cry, because this meme is so brutal, and it hurts.

anon on, IP logging off.

I'll just leave this here... IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM, NOW IS THE TIME!! (actually any time is the time, but now you don't have to feel awkward.)



so I was watching supernatural with my mother and she asked me, verbatim, "if you had to do one of them, which one?" I stared in disgust but she kept asking. 8( OKAY 1) YOU ARE NEARLY SIXTY AND MY MOTHER, 2) I don't enjoy...manly men I'M SORRY I JUST DON'T, 3) I have no idea why but those questions make me extremely uncomfortable.

meme stolen from rinnakins!

1. Go to Google and type, "You know you're from (your city or state) when...." (hit "I'm feeling lucky")
2. Cut and paste the list.
3. Bold the items that apply to you

( yeah I love these things )

cat is finally gone. I CAN SLEEP AGAIN. I much prefer my dog to that...nuisance.

goddamn I love darren criss' live version of 'stutter.' ...and pretty much every song he's sung, actually.

GODDAMMIT WHERE DID THE SUMMER GO

HELLO FLIST!!

so. I apped Aang over at witchesreign. it's slower than gargleblasted so I should be good managing both once I get over my NEW GAME MUST COMMENT EVERYWHERE phase. it's only been a few days but I like it! ...though tbh I have no idea how the battle system works despite reading twenty posts on it. and I need to canon review Aang already since I apped over a week ago (LONG IN SUMMER TIME) and forgot shit already.

yeah also I love a very potter sequel. ...it made me love Umbridge, idek. this will make for an interesting reread.

most importantly!! friend went on vacation so I have her kitten for a week. yeah, it's ( picspam time. )

after the second day, she started getting along with my dog pretty well. maxine attacks her and my dog licks her (and pokes her with her nose HAHAHA IT'S SO BRUTAL she gets pounded into the ground). I had to move her to the couch my dog was on when they were both sleeping and she relocated to my dog's belly. :c the cutest.

also we had to get rid of my fish yesterday because she kept DRINKING OUT OF THE FILTER that's disgusting. and sitting on the lid to the tank. what the fuck. ...this is the first time in like. eight years I haven't had fish. it's bizarre. may get another betta because it's lonely. 8(

there is so much kitty litter embedded into my carpet it's ridiculous. I will never forgive her.

okay, picturespam post because KITTEN and also I went to the beach to see the sunset last night.

( yessss )

EIGHT MORE DAYS OF SCHOOOOOooooool...!

tagged by puffs!

♪ If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new question.
♫ Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

( meme. )

FORGOT TO TAG AS ALWAYS uh. I'm in a rush so whoever wants to is tagged.

so tomorrow is bring your child to work day and. I'm going with my mother for two hours. TWO HOURS IN A CLASSROOM WITH EIGHT NONVERBAL AUTISTIC CHILDREN then. back to school for my psych test and precalc review. ;__; idek I'm kind of terrified.

so my precalc teacher told us that since we won't have a big test/project this marking period, 80% of our grade will be tests/quizzes.

HAHAHAHA I MIGHT AS WELL JUST KILL MYSELF NOW what a fucking cunt. I mean, it would be fucking stupid to just split homework/participation so half the class doesn't fail.

in other news, there's an outbreak of syphilis in the senior class. which has spread to the other grades by now... stay classy, school. this is hilarious.

um. waiting for my pokemon heartgold to ship (!!!) so I'm playing my abandoned sapphire. ARON IS FUCKING BADASS fuck yeah I use Lairon more than my fucking starter. I wrote an essay about it today in french. ahaha ;__;

I lost ten pounds. 8U